In my last post I began
answering a question by Amanda Risser a spiritual practitioner and roller derby queen. My initial response to her was too long for one post so here is the second part.
Here is a brief recap of her
question:
Here's my current challenge:
- I am working on being more effective at performing the kinds of blocking and hitting that exists in my sport.
- I struggle with finding a place within myself to draw the kind of energy that is helpful in doing so.
- My blocks and hits are suffering from over thinking and hesitation. They need to be more fluid and easy. Some of this will come with more practice and skill; the rest needs to come from a different connection between body and brain.
- Many of my teammates work on this by vocalizing or imagining they are hitting someone they hate, or visualizing some kind of animal that helps them connect with the aggression.
I don't feel comfortable harming someone I hate (and can't figure out if there is anything or anyone I 'hate' anyway) and visualizing an animal being aggressive doesn't help, and actually gets in the way! (…) I think that I'm a better contact sport player the more I take care to be an excellent sportswoman, teammate, opponent which seems more controlled and responsible than a wild dog. Compassion and care is wrapped up in there somewhere but I'm having a hard time untangling it.
- I am working on being more effective at performing the kinds of blocking and hitting that exists in my sport.
- I struggle with finding a place within myself to draw the kind of energy that is helpful in doing so.
- My blocks and hits are suffering from over thinking and hesitation. They need to be more fluid and easy. Some of this will come with more practice and skill; the rest needs to come from a different connection between body and brain.
- Many of my teammates work on this by vocalizing or imagining they are hitting someone they hate, or visualizing some kind of animal that helps them connect with the aggression.
I don't feel comfortable harming someone I hate (and can't figure out if there is anything or anyone I 'hate' anyway) and visualizing an animal being aggressive doesn't help, and actually gets in the way! (…) I think that I'm a better contact sport player the more I take care to be an excellent sportswoman, teammate, opponent which seems more controlled and responsible than a wild dog. Compassion and care is wrapped up in there somewhere but I'm having a hard time untangling it.
Any thoughts?
Zen masters through the ages
have been anything but gentle and often their actions helped their students
achieve awakening. These masters had high intentions when they acted in a
fierce way. In addition they also
used fierce compassion with a great amount of skill.
First, it’s important to set
down what your intentions are for your roller derby. When writing down
intentions don’t just state the obvious. For example if you are trying to
exercise more you might say, “I exercise more so that I can be in better
shape.” Instead try to think about why you want to be in shape.
Maybe you want to live
longer to spend time with your family. Maybe you want to look better so you
will feel more confident. Maybe you want to block better so you can support
your team. Whatever your deeper intentions are write those down.
Then once you have those
intentions try writing a simple dedication, prayer, or motto that states those
intentions. One dedication I have used is, “I am as impermanent as everything else. Nothing I will do can change
this. I dedicate the merit of my effort to the freeing of all living beings. May my every
action embody my deep vows, strengthen my mind, and open my heart.”
Next extend your dedication
using mantra practice. For example, when I am cycling uphill on my bike, I
chant internally, “Transforming karma, I ride for the dharma!” This mantra
extends my intention to spread compassion through my actions.
When I use this mantra, I
find I am more present with both the pain and the joy of a challenging task.
The mantra helps me not think too much about the discomfort. In addition it
brings my intention and actions into alignment.
Try to create a mantra you
can say each time you block a person. For starters you could try the loving
kindness mantras: may you be free from suffering. Try striking on the last word
for emphasis. If that’s too long you might try a shortened version. You might
just say, “BE FREE!”
It doesn't really matter
what words you use so long as they:
1. Are simple and easy to
remember.
2. Resonate with your hearts
desire.
If you were to combine the
two practices of intention setting and mantras I believe you will be able to
overcome your hesitation. The most important thing is that you be clear about
your intentions and then use tools that are in alignment with them. If you can do that any practice you
engage in will help to free yourself and those around you from suffering.